Memories...

and so it happened...again...

2011-08-15T21:06:00.001-07:00

So after all the bashing and things I said I won't do. I did it again... The part that irritates me the most is that it's like everytime, I know something will turn out wrong if I do it but in the end I still went and do it.

Things that I am lacking so badly, self control and initiative to do things early and not be last minute.

So it comes down to this question again. For what reason am I in this world? What do I truly want to do or be?

ああああむかつく。私で本とに最低。

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2011-04-22T00:14:00.000-07:00

I always find myself... what's that word to describe it..not really sure myself.

I know what should be done, the consequence of doing things and the do and don't. but in the end I will still go and do the same mistakes over and over again. Or am I just too lazy to used to it to be even bother about it.

I find myself the type that, the more knowledge I hold, the worst I will react to the situation. Might be due to the fact of me over-thinking and processing too much but not coming to a conclusion.

oh well, all I can say is that, although I know I should not be saying this myself, regretting my choices. However time moves forward, I guess I just have to face my mistakes and move on in life like everyone does.

もう、泣きたいよ。もう何も解らないよ。。

2011-03-23T06:20:00.000-07:00

What can I say... I am speechless... I don't even know what to do any more... or more like, what can I do.... I'm just standing in front of this wall that is blocking my way... but who can I blame other than myself....its was all my fault anyway... life goes on? I guess its just like the earthquake in Japan, no matter what happened, we still need to proceed on..

Suddenly I remembered what Chi Yong said once, " Once you made your choice, don't regret after that." I thought I kept this phase close to my heart and been telling myself that, yea its my choice and anything that happens after that is for me to handle. I guess I took it too lightly. I guess I didn't understood the meaning behind this until now.

I really don't know what to do any more, who do I even turn to any more... who can I show my weaker side to and not get laugh at or scolded at... how long more do I have to wear this mask of mine... When can I ever be true to myself...Or am I just too scared for people to know about my weak side...Scared of losing face....Scared of being laugh at...in the end, I am just scared of everything..

I have no idea how to break this news to my friends..my family..I just feel like disappearing, yet I don't want to be alone.... I really don't know anything any more....

Am I going to be left behind again? Do I need to mix into another class that now I totally don't have any one I know...

ねえ、何をすればいいの？誰に話すればいいの？一人はいやだ。。

Mixed feelings, confused, lost, can't even find the correct word to express my thoughts and mood

2011-01-25T05:39:00.000-08:00

What a surprised, I actually came back here again. This seem to become the place for me to put down my never ending thoughts and crappy emotions I had.

Went to KKnM to asked for interim. I have no idea why I actually did that. Maybe I just find myself at peace there, even more than I am at home. Since I am always just running away from things with games and such. Or is it just becoming another place I am running away to? I really hope thats not the case. I really like it there. Its lively and noisy at times but yet it puts me at ease. I like to see the different customers that steps into the store and just happily buying their things or just browsing through. I like being around the groups of people that hangs around the store from time to time even if they are not paying attention to me and talking to the others. Or am I just being strange?

Stepping up on my assignments for once. Have no idea why but I just don't put in my all when it comes to the important parts.

Arrrrr.....no mood to do anything again...

Bored?I guess so

2011-01-07T11:33:00.000-08:00

Hmm.. Browsing through old websites and happened to came back here. Looking back at my own post just makes me think. Man, I feel like I'm stuck in time and unable to advance.

Nothing has changed, maybe there is but I changed for the worst. Been skipping school too much, assignments are not done, I don't even know what I want anymore. I feel like I am just running away from things and not facing my mistakes.

I feel so guilty, for dragging my teammates down, people who are at least trying to progress. But no matter how much I blame myself and all. Even though I know I need to put in more effort, in the end I will still lose to me own laziness.

Went to Grandma's grave (not really sure what is it called) at the church 2 days ago. Don't really know why but I just went. Prayed awhile and went off. I guess I just feel bad for not going for the mass prayer that day.

As I was thinking the other day, I noticed that I totally didn't put in effort in whatever I did in the past. As a councilor, as a student or maybe even as a human. Maybe what they said was true, I got pampered by my family too much that I took everything for granted.

I also noticed something strange, I like to observe people, things and such. But I don't really like to get involved in it. Or is that really true? Maybe I wish to be involve somehow.

3 years has passed since Secondary School, have I made progress in life? Have I made more friends? Or have I loss more? Well one thing is for certain, I can't stay the way I am now.

Helping out in open house later. Don't even know if I will have the mood the do anything, but since I am already volunteering, maybe I may find something worth doing it.

2009-06-11T10:26:00.000-07:00

its holidays yet i dun have the feeling it is..

lagging behind in my work again, things are just getting piled up. At this rate it will turn out like last year again..ARRR i hate myself to the core.

2009-05-30T01:07:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was YCSS Gala night. Was really pissed off by the school management man, long hair/dye hair cannot come in. Like wat sia, ur invite us to go, now u telling us becoz of our hair we cannot go in wif excuss like parents and other sch ppl are also invited and it will somehow affect the sch reputation. Come on man, we have already graduated from there, wats wif all the rules coming back at us again.

But somehow, wif the help of someone, i managed to get through and went to the new sch hall. It was a hot day. Saw Siang lin, Andy, Hong Yong, Chaqif, Nazrul, Zhong Rong, Ryan Yeo, Darren, and a few others. The Gala night started and after watching it all i could say is, The PA system sux, i not talking abt the crew, but the system itself. voice were muffled and can't really hear wat the MCs or the ELDDS were saying. The MCs were quite bad too but i cant blame them.

Well at least the performance were nice, Mr Kumar actually danced as the last item too. Was happy to see Miss Ker, Miss Chong and Teachers after such a long time too.

Well wat to say but, i guess i missed the times during my secondary sch, but i guess thats why there are my fun memories, wif the class, wif EXCO 06'. Mdm Teo actually motivated me again since last time during secondary sch.

Photos can be found on facebook, updated by Ryan(Thx alot!).

Lastly, Happy birthday Jingen and Ying Xiu. May all your wishes come true!

2009-05-16T10:17:00.000-07:00

and yet again i have came back to post.

first and foremost, Happy Birthday Wiwin, sorry for not being able to attend your celebration.

have been working as a promoter for laptops for these few weekends. think my sales talk i getting better but still, i am more focus on finding what the customer wan then jus selling my on brand.

After work went to ate supper with my dota friends. what shocked me was when a birthday cake was brought out to early celebrate my birthday. they even when to walk around the whole day to buy the cake and checking out the location to celebrate. from the bottom of my heart ありがとうございます。

walked arround with them and my fren,yi liang's father actually sent us home even though we are going the opposite direction.

well wat can i say, today was a eventful day for me i guess. although i still dun get y some promoters is just so despo for money that they will steal other peoples customers. what is wrong with people now adays. i dun really get it myself sometimes.

2009-03-22T05:57:00.000-07:00

lets see...suddenly feel like blogging again.

1st and foremost, thx for everybody who made the guzheng camp successful. it was a tiring process but we somehow manage to finish it. I hope everyone had fun.

now to review a bit on what happened in the past weeks. currently working at MC.2 with Lee Sheng, which is located at suntec which sells laptops and stuff. This somehow made me notice how greedy people can be. But i really grateful to my seniors at the shop who help me along the way and make working there not as stressful and more enjoyable.

Got my results back, kind of expected it, need to buck up on my studies even more now, since it is my choice that i want to repeat. people will think i am mad maybe? wasting another year to study the same thing again. But i always think that, if i am unable to cope wif what was given to me now, will i be able to cope wif it in year two?when my foundations are not there? Guess this is the result for slacking too much.

I had been thinking these few days...have i ever did something for the sake of myself? when i suddenly think back, all i have been doing was because someone told me to, parents, teachers, friends... what is truly my dream?

suddenly feel like saying this, thank you to all the people i know, for supporting and pushing me along. without them, maybe i would have broke down long ago?

2009-01-23T08:36:00.000-08:00

Wandering around like a lost sheep, i guess i have finally come down on my decision yet again.

As the year is going to end, comes the end of the modules, signals the starts of the holidays but at the same time, the deadlines of all the projects in my modules.

Well lots of things has happened during the year and i actually felt like giving up a couple of times. However always at that moment, there is always something or someone to pick me up. Sounds abit pathetic dun i? but i guess the attitude of making rush decision without checking out the details is wat i need to change.

well since i already decided on what to do, i guess now all i need to do is to be twice, no triple more hardworking as usual since i was actually given a chance.

Hope to meet up with the people that i wish to see, but i guess that is kind of impossible since everyone is actually busy.

2008-11-26T06:57:00.000-08:00

MST coming soon for poly people, for me, all the project deadlines.

So two teachers are leaving YCSS for good this year,Miss Ker leaving SG while Mr Wong going to teach at another school.

been going to KKnM at sunshine this few days, hopping to see more figurings and T-shirts. Went to a manga cafe too, but nth much there.

well thats all i guess, boring as usual, guess i going to sleep early. Going out with Miss Ker they all tmr.

2008-11-21T04:25:00.000-08:00

Been sick for two days now, had cool and fever and cough. Was quite shock when the doctor said that my temperature was 39. my highest record.

the doc gave me three days MC. So i had been resting at home. Today morning nearly fainted(well actually i did, although i regain conscience fast due to my mother.) then my mother decided to take off from working to take care of me.

Now feeling better a bit. hope then i will be back to normal by tmr or else i cannot go AFA at suntec.

projects deadlines are pilling up, no idea how i am going to finish them all within this short time. guess i need to work harder.

2008-11-01T08:33:00.000-07:00

how long has it been since i last blogged...hm...let me count...around 4 month maybe?

if you ever asked how i have been i guess i would always say that i am ok i guess...but i rather be ok then sick or bad...and i think i would nearly forgot what happy would be it i have not been around my cousins.

My faithful Grandmother passed away this Monday, 27 October 2008, 10.05 a.m.
Don't know is it because of coincidence or grandma planed it out, she passed away in a holiday, and the timing for the prayers for the next 7 weeks are all on sundays.

Don't know what to say now but, i guess life goes on. need to pick up my pace in school, falling behind everyone.

May grandma rest in peace.

2008-06-29T07:27:00.000-07:00

more and more assignments are stacking up...and i have no idea how i am going to finish them all...being too lazy i guess..as always>.>

well went to the Coscon at suntec today.Was wishing to see quite a number or cosplayer there but i guess i ask for too much. There was only a few of them, around 18-20 i think. The costume are great, but the way they act is a bit...weird i guess. guess i am more looking forward to cosfest.

well..suddenly having a lot of brainstorming about characters...still a bit confused on what i should draw..and a lot of others stuff on my mind are distracting me. But i guess i am jus freaking out.

Well, anybody interested to go to cosfest together?5th and 6th of july at downtown east,timing not confirmed yet but should be in the afternoon to around 6pm.I dun think i will stay there the whole there though,unless there is really stuff that interest me.

2008-06-18T14:26:00.000-07:00

well,Xiu Wei had a quiz and i was bored anyway so i gave it a try.lol,jus lazy to do my assignments although i dun haf much time left untill term starts.

1. Do you have wide groups of friends?
not really.i don't talk much unless somebody start talking to me 1st

2. If you're in trouble, will your friends 'fly' over to help you immediately?
if they noe about it.yup.but most of the time i never tell them much if i actually have a problem.

3. Will you sacrifice your most precious thing for your friends?
hm...need to consider.Family first right?

4. Do you believe in Best friends, BFFs , or that everyone's equal?
BFFs?wats that?well...i believe in best friends.

5. Do you think that a straight & A woman can just be a platonic friends?
platonic?wats with all the weird questions.

6. Do you have a female friend that you can trust with almost everything?
eh...i did i guess.

7. Do you think that friends should tell each other everything?
if it does an negative impact on them,i don't think i will tell them.

8. If your friends are in trouble, what will you do?
Advice or help if possible

9. In future, if your friends get married and ask you to be their best men/bridesmaid, will you agree?
why not?its their happiest day in their life.

10.What if your enemy calls you one day to make peace?
it is better to have one more friend then one more enemy,right?

11.What will you do to a friend whom you trust deeply, betrayed you?
depends on wat happened.

12. If your friend snatch away your girlfriend, will you still be a friend or hate him/her completely?
i would feel down for a while i guess,but if my girlfriend actually likes the guy better and they can be happy together,then i would give them my blessings.

13. What if there is a boy/girl that have liked your friend for quite some time, tells you that he/she needs your help to win the heart of your friend, will you help him/her?
well..i would but if my friend don't like him/her,i can't really do much can i?

14.Do your parents think that your friends are a bad influence?
did,but dun really say much now.

15.What will you tell your parents if they asked you to transfer school, which means losing all your closest friends ?
tough one,but i will object.

16.If your friend organise a once in a life time party, but your family doesn't allow you to go? Will you sulk/throw a temper/sneak out/Don't go?
none.i just explain to her the situation until she understand what is happening.after all my mum is not that unreasonable.

17.How will you describe your friendship relationship with your friends?
hm...close yet not that close.dunnoe abt themselve much but i can still play can chat wif them and go hanging out wif them.

18.Define friendship.
friends are..people who care for you,plays with you and laugh and cry together>.>

19Name 20 people whom you can think right now.Don't read the questions until you named the 20 people.

1.Lee Sheng
2.Wiwin
3.Kenneth Koh
4.Randall
5.Xiu Wei
6.Andy
7.Dominic
8.Siang Lin
9.Khek Chin
10.Jing En
11.Gloria
12.Mei Xin
13.Ying Xiu
14.Si Man
15.Hui Jun
16.Larry
17.Hon Xuan
18.Darren
19.Hong Yong
20.Melcom

How Did you meet no. 4?
sec1 same class.Now same course in poly and same class too.

What will you do if you never meet no. 1?
hm..1 less dota fren,Basketball fren,Teakwan-do fren,work place buddy,bully..actually i will be quite boring in my secondary school life without him.

What if no. 9 & no. 20 dated?
they dun noe each other...and if they did..they would be..."arhm"

Will no.6 & no.17 date?
wow...y all tio guys one>.>no way lor

Describe no. 3.
Manga drawing,Jap pro,Bamboooooo user(dun say bamboo sux infront of him),Chinese CMI,RO pro and last but not least...HIS ROOM IS DAMN NICE.

Describe no.7.
Fun,fast,sporty and great at acting out in the "videos"during sec school.(u might be wondering wat kind of videos)

Do you know any of no.12's family?
saw her bro once,and thats it

What will you do if no.18 confess to you that he / she likes you ?
=.=''''

What language does no.15 speaks?
eng,chi,abit of jap i guess.

How old is no.16?
16+

When is the last time you spoke to no.13?
hm...last guzheng gathering i guess.

Who is no.2 favourite band or singer?
she listens to any songs that is nice to her i guess.Jap songs or anime songs.

Would you ever date no.4?
=.='''

Would you ever date no.1?
=.='''

Is no.19 single?
i have no idea,but since he had 356 gals in secondary scl last time,i dun think he is.

Would you ever be in a relationship with no.11?
Doubt so.

School of no.3?
Singapore PolY

Where does no.6 live?
around Jurong West extension area.near pioneer mall if i not wrong

Have you seen no.2 naked?
iie(No)

What is no.8's nickname?
dun remember>.>even if i did i dun want to type it here.

well thats all i guess.will blog soon...if i am bored again>.>

2008-06-13T20:31:00.000-07:00

dead blog,lolz... dun mind me,just come to post some boring stuff i guess.

yesterday went back to YCSS, it started to rain when am reaching the school.waited for Xiu Wei at the bus stop and we went in together.Andy and the new EXCO were teaching the councillors how to dance.I heard from Andy it is Mr Chia idea after he saw the JJC ppl did it.so from 9-12, Xiu Wei and me were watching them dancing.Siang Lin came abit later and went off at around 12 as she haf lessons at 1.We went to the staff room and nobody was there other then Mr Wong.Abit disappointed as i thought i will be able to see some teachers.

After that went to JP with Andy and Xiu Wei to eat Mc as Andy said he didn't eat Mc for like 3 months and i was pretty shocked.Guess he is as busy as usual.We talked alot,stuff about school and JCs and polys and some old memories.I guess Secondary school is still better in some sense.

After that took bus home.Took a nap and thats most of it.

Can't really sleep well this few days,reasons might be due to my "busy" schedule, another reason is i have been having all these weird dreams..abt my family,end of the world and even the sword Ragnarok some weird weird stuff.I also thought abt stuff like whether if my ideals i will regret it in the future.Well i guess i am thinking too much of this kind of stuff.

Thats all i am going to post for now.need to start doing my assignments and project work.

2008-05-19T10:42:00.000-07:00

wow...how long has it been since i last blog.i guess my lazyness is kicking in again.

well school has been busy i guess,all the assignments that i am unable to clear,but mostly becoz i been playing alot too.

went out alot too,going out with friends to eat,play,watch movies and so on.alot of peoples birthday celebration too.cakes and cakes i had eaten.

for these few days,i dream alot.about any kind of stuff.pretty much random too.dunnoe why too.but i kind of find them...like i seen them before or i have a feeling that it will happen in the future.dreaming for the whole day today.only woke up when my mom called me like 6 pm.

i feel like goin back to YCSS tmr,since tmr afternoon there are no lessons.but i wonder what i am going to do it i go there.maybe i should buy a present for Ms Ker.but i dunnoe wat to buy for her too...hm...

well,dunnoe when i am going to blog again,but i guess when i have the mood to do so..

2008-04-16T06:05:00.000-07:00

3rd day of school,damn early,8am in the morning.we could not find our classroom and we found out that the classroom on the timetable was wrong.lol,we like slack for around 1 hour be4 one lecturer told us to go to the design school office to ask.

Today class was quite fun,laughed alot with the lecturers jokes and stories.then i have problem pronounce the "th".still trying.

alot of assignments need to do sia..1 class got 1 assignment,some more 1 of them have 3 assignment and need to draw one some more.think i can don't need to go out liao.but one of the assignment more weird,go observe the eatting behavior of 2-3 years old kid and design one eatting tool for them.worst of all,all of the assignment need to hand in by next week.

afternoon went to the CADC club for breifing.not much of detail,only told us that we need to plan one event for the other sections in the CADC groups and need to meet next monday to discussed.

Feel like going back to YCSS,but abit lazy.lol.all my lessons end quite late.

2008-04-14T06:36:00.000-07:00

1st day of school,was abit slacking as usual.went to school abit eariler then usual.met the guys at dover then went for class.everybody was like playing or on msn on their lappy.

1st lesson was lecture,brief us on wat the course is abt and wat we are doing for the next few weeks.then tutorial started.did shading and gradient.damn my shading damn sux.think i need to practice more from now on.got 3 assignment for the week.then went for lunch break.

After lunch was lecture,but the lecturer gave us boardgames to play.My group was playin Tickets(not full name)and we had a fun time jus any how playing and not following the rules.Time passes fast when u are having fun.lol.

tmr lseeson is early,after that got a hugh gap in between.think Randall and I will go out and buy our materials that went out on stock.

Thats all for now i guess..

2008-04-13T04:23:00.000-07:00

Just woke up,lol,can't really blame me cause i reached home at 7 in the morning today and got nag by my mum for not coming home to slp.So i will tell you wat happened last night

Met Randall at Lakeside at 5+,then went to Boon Keng MRT and meet up with the guys from CADC.We then waited awhile for more ppl to come.we will all like occupying the whole staircase and talking and playing there.We then set off to the steamboat place and we all sat down.

Zhang Kai(camp cheif) then started collecting the money and we tried to made him confused.then we all started to take food and started cooking.one of the guys putted too much butter and everything was like oily.but it was still nice.the seniors all started to walk ard and take food to eat from other tables.smart sia they,dun need to cook themselves but still got food to eat.

after eatting finish,some of the guys were playing the pub games then we started to bomb and cheer.after that we went to a nearby grass patch and the seniors open a few bottles of sparkling juice and we all yam seng for very long.then gifts for the seniors were given out and then we were given gifts by our GA and GL toos.

We then went to farrer park to play LAN.i didn't lose any rounds for the "night" althought i nearly lost one.we play untill it was 6 and we went home.Zheng Kai,Randall and me then went to JP to eat Mc be4 going home.

tmr start scl ler..timetable abit messy but still pack.will blog soon bah.

2008-04-10T07:41:00.000-07:00

hm....this week was a fun and tired week for me.my freshman orientation programme week.did not really feel like going for it at 1st,but i glad i did went.get to know a few classmates and friends from other courses.

Tuesday
well,meet up with randall at dover.then went to moberly which is a place for SP students to slack and play at.We went for a school tour 1st,after that we painted the graffiti wall there.it was quite nice.know a few new ppl in my group.Gareth,Wiwin,Eunice,Dawn and a few other of them.it started to rain when we were painting the wall,so we went into the moberly and waited for the rain to stop.we went back and found the paints smerge up.we had to redo it again and after that was mostly wat we did untill the end of the day.I and randall then went out with the seniors and played LAN at JE,but the com sux and we never even played for one hr and left.after eating Mc with randall,i went home.

Wed
We were asked to perfrom a skit based on a picture they gave us.we brainstormed and many weird ideas came out.Sylar,Mas etc.We then decided to add in a dance and we all learned it and we had fun with each other.after that we went to hang out at moberly again untill it was time for us to meet up.We were all "bombing" each other and after that the skit started.we then had our group photo and we went home early.

Today
today was flag day.meet them at serangoon and we walked around.we splited into small groups and we went to had Mc at serengoon gardens.we then walked around and decided to head to JP,then changed to JE,then doby gourd.went there,splited to even smaller groups,then my group went to play pool.then we met up with the other guys and went back to report to sp.i only managed to get $3++,lol,too much slacking today.then we went to JP and play at the arcade.then i went home.

well thats all,tmr is meeting with the seniors.then need to buy stationary....so EX sia...200+..feel like going back to YCSS if it is still early..see bah..

P.S Darren-CADC=Current affeirs and debating club

2008-03-30T02:19:00.000-07:00

A few days has passed since i came back from the 4Days3Night camp theme Bleach by CADC at St John island.it was a fun and tiring trip.i will try and list down wat happened there.

Day 1
Meet up at Foodcourt 2.ate a pao and milo as i thought i would be late,but i reached there very early.talked with a few ppl there and made a few friends.then the ppl start coming in and the Group leaders too.we then starting with the Ice Breakers as we waited for the bus to come.We then board the bus and went to the ferry.Forgot which ferry was it.we then took the boat to St.John island and we went to our campsite.we settle down and we started to introduced ourself to each other and the Multi-purpose hall.the rule and regulation for the camp and also the groups,TenJin,Raijin,Fujin,Reijin and the ppl in the groups.we met our group leaders and group assitants.they are Wei Yi,Celia(sry ar,not sure the spelling)Yu Huang and Marcus.we then designed and drew our group mascot and also our group cheer.we then started our activities and there were song sessions and others games.then it was lunch time,all the groups need to think of their individual group's food cheer.we then needed to shout it out to the cooks,who are the seniors.activities were as normal if i nvr forgot.Dinner came and another new cheer was needed.then at that,we have a small skit which was abt ichigo and the ppl from Bleach.we then need to go on a treasure hunt the they cosplayed the ppl well.oh i almost forgot to introduce the PC(i dun really noe wat it means,but this it wat they called themselves)Zhang Kai the camp chief,Ethle(not sure the name again,sry)the assistant camp chief and Lawson,Cheng Ting,Derrick and so on which i not sure abt their name.we ended quite late at abt 2++am and we went to slp.

Day 2
waked up ard 8,was abit tired but still ok i guessed.we went for a morning jog and then had our morning games at the basketball court.dun really remember wat games there are but it was quite fun.then we went back to camp for our food then activities again.in the afternoon we had our Telematch and there was a station called superman slide,which was quite fun althought we had to make contact with oil.then we were going to haf our beach activities when it started to rain heavily and we had to cancel it.we went back to camp and we bath and had our second skit.Orihime was murdered and we had to find out who the murderer is.i did not really participate in the activity as i was tired and nth came into my mind.The result was abit unexpected and funny too.we ended abt 3.30am and we were really tired.

Day 3
We woke up ard 9 and we had our usual activities in the morning.dun really remember wat happened but we had another round of games which involves water and waterbombs.We then had song sessions again and we needed to plan our skit.the theme was abit weird,Power rad ngers and Winnie the pooh.but we managed to settle it.Then we also had our survivel cooking and we had to cook the things given and night came.we went to the beach to haf our campfire and we sang and perform our skit.after the campfire,we went back to the camp and we needed to have a cheer for the whole campus and the cooks prepared for us alot of food.we ate and played games.We then have the reveal of our Secret admirer game.i could not find mine but somebody actually picked each other names and they were ask to purpose to each other.we then had our disco night which lasted untill 6.30am.but i did not dance the whole night.i only danced untill 5.30.

Day4
we wokke up abt 9 and we had to clean up the place.we then rushed off as there was another grp of ppl coming and we had to leave the campsite.we then took the boat back and bus back to SP.We then had our photos taken and we all went to eat at KFC.i went home on a taxi wif randall they all after that.

Well thats all i could remember.now i need to prepare for my next camp.will blog soon...

2008-03-20T04:38:00.000-07:00

Today went to SP for my camp briefing,nvr expect to have ice-breakers with the members.get to knoe a few new ppl althought we still don't know each other much.

Talk alot with Randall today,although it was abt games,but i guess i am happy to talk wif someone,might be due to the fact that i stay along at home for too long,not even talking to ppl in games or MSN.

Got home at ard 5,then my sis sms and asked if i want to go out and eat with her.when to the old market at jurong west(well it is nit really call old market,it was becoz i moved my house and i got used to calling it old market)talked abit abt stuff that happened at home.well i guess the small quarrels are still happening at home.too lazy to bother abt it.After tht went to the bubbletea shp and find the auntie there.there was quite a number of ppl and we helped her out abit.sis said that it was ok to help her out everytime there as she find it happy i guess.

now i starting to find it lazy to go for the camps,should not have register for it.but i guess camps can be fun bah,but i hate being tired>.>but i guess i need to open up my social circle and stopped being low-profile like last time bah,although i am still now.

2008-03-18T22:54:00.000-07:00

Going to be one mth since i last blog,lazy as usual.but now since i got my own laptop i might blog more often.

the enrollment to poly really needs alot of things to do.body checkup,financial forms and so on.i even gotten my mum IC wrong,now i dunnoe wat to do liao.

Nvr really went out this few wks,always alone at home doing nth.kind of bored i guessed.raining this few wks too,makes me even more bored cause i dun wan to go out in the rain.

missed the times i spent with you guys,but i guess poly life is different now.need to work harder liao.abit tight wif my money too.spent alot during the time i am not working.

well need to sign off liao,need to do some packing up of my house.

2008-02-21T23:56:00.000-08:00

super long nvr blog liao,finally got the time to blog.

working working,that was wat my life is for now.untill i start scl.i got into SP,Games design and development.

bought my PSP a few days ago,was super happy.my house internet also changed to wireless.

too long nvr blog ler,dunnoe wat to blog abt,too many things thtat happened the last few weeks.

2008-01-21T01:28:00.000-08:00

so confirmed the date for the released of 'O' levels.on 24th this Thursday.

received a booklet for the SP courses this year.after looking at cut off point for them,i only felt one thing.saddened.the course i want to enter has a cut off point of 12...which is like..unless is my predicted results or else sure cannot make it one.

Suddenly i am worried..worried abt wat course to go to if i cannot enter the course i wan to go..everybody says that i should do accounting..but i dun feel like going that course at all.although i did tell my mum that i would go that course if i cannot go the course i wanted.

today is the final off day until chinese new year,went out in the afternoon to meet my nuer and she passed me a gift.A really nice wallet.thanks you for the present.

well,it will be all work for me.don't think i will be able to blog soon.may we all meet on the day the results is released.

2008-01-16T06:14:00.000-08:00

sheeze...i feel like my body is going to break down soon.gettin really tired for no reason.

This few days have been selling flowers,need to move them and water them also.i was like,totally blur becoz i dun have any plants at home.then need to promote to the customers too and some of them ask really weird questions.

have nth to do at home lately,my own com broke down so can only use my sis laptop.dun feel chattin with others online too.so bored at home nowadays.maybe i now get the meaning of it is better to be studying then working.

Nuer,take care of yourself hor,cant really go out wif u or help you much ler(i did'nt go out much with you in the 1st place actually=.=)luckily you still have your best buddies to support you,so dun breakdown so often k?

2008-01-09T00:54:00.001-08:00

What Chong Jin Tian Means

You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily.You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind.A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable.
You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.
You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.
You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.
You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.
You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you.You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries.You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.
You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality.

What's" Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

2008-01-07T01:34:00.000-08:00

ok..long time never post=.=so going to list down the events that happened.

Last friday went back to school,did'nt managed to see any juniors other then the few that stay for the orientation.could not stayed for the campfire too becoz got my TKD.but don't worry,i will be goin back this friday again(need to return things,again,lolZ)

On Sat night,went out to eat with my company ppl because my cheif cashier came back from her holiday(just married).i was the youngest among them and i felt odd as usual.manage to know more about them i guess.

To all my junoirs,the year jus started so dun put so much stress on yourself,but still need to keep up with your studies or else will rust one>.>

Btw,i will be working throughout for the 2-3 wks be4 chinese new year,so i dun think i will be blogging untill new year.

2007-12-31T06:03:00.000-08:00

Yawn...ok i going to make this short.

Sorry that i am unable to update my blog often,or go out for meetings too.now working 6 days per week,can only go out on friday.

Working as a cashier is hard,all the barcode numbers,the veg price,the packing and the change...sheeze..need to be fast also..

Was only able to balance for two days...other days were all unbalance.

Going for sec1 camp this week,but dun think i can do much cause i would be tired.

well...thats all for now i guess,my next post should be near my results.

2007-12-18T04:16:00.000-08:00

ok...going to post for two days

Yesterday night went to AMKhub and ate pizzahut with my guildmates from maple.quite rare for me to meet them cause normally i am busy when they met up.did not talk much with them cause i just got to know them.But i only know one thing,maple is their universal language.

Today,went back to scl for the councill retreat,was lunch time when i reach there.did not do much,just had some talk with Andy,Cazua,Dom and Hon Xuen.Today was also the release of 'N' levels result.Jojo did quite well but she said it was not up to her expectetion,wish her good luck for her 'O's next year.Dom said he was posted to Inova(dunnoe how to spell),but he is appealing to go JJ or CJ,Andy is goin to JJ while Cazua is the event planner for next year's sec 1 oirentation.Hon Xuen is working at Cisco.

Going to start working tmr,hope i can handle it.

2007-12-15T08:51:00.000-08:00

time pass really fast,don't you think so?I always felt that way.not having enough time to catch all the memories and the great times I missed.It had already being one 1wk and 3 days since I came back from China.

This evening when I went out to eat with my sister,we went back to the old market where which was near to my old house.I suddenly realised that there was alot of things I missed,and I even remembered to finished my China journal.I also missed the times I had there,and most of all,the people and friends I got to know.

4 years in school just feel like everything went through in a blink,like a gust of wind that blew pass.the teachers that taught me for years and the seniors and juniors that I am not close with just left.I guess this is what they say growing up I guess.But I suddenly miss all the things,the foods,the place...bleh...what am I crapping about.

guess my weird thoughts are getting to me again,guess I must be tired.

2007-12-14T17:48:00.000-08:00

Yeah i finally got a job!!!ok,LS introduced me to go Sheng Song be stacker like him,when i went for the interview,the supervisor said that there is slots for cashier and want me to do that.the trouble is,need to cut hair=.=

now all i left to do before i go to work is to return the jacket to Miss Ker and and for the councill retreat next tuesday.

guess i will be playing all day for now,or else start work cannot play ler,lolz

2007-12-12T08:31:00.000-08:00

Was tired yesterday so i didn't find the time to blog,today was slacking all day as always.

Yesterday,went out with the Guzheng friends or so called family.Met up with them(Leanne,Mei Xin,Ying Xiu,Si Man,Si Min,Gloria and Song Boon) at lakeside then went to Redhill and met my daughter(wow..i cant believe i am typing this=.=),Jingen and ate lunch there.ate satay beehoon which was nicer then what i had near my house.Suddenly after they saw me ate,they also went to buy one too other then the juniors.Simin had to go first cause she had babysitting to do.So we took a bus and went to orchard after saying good bye to her.

We reached orchard and they were saying they want to go somewhere which i dunnoe where,then suddenly we walked passed Shaw city,then they suggested to watched a movie,which we watched Enchanted,which was quite nice,funny too.

Came out and they ate ice cream,looks delicious but i resisted cause i was not feeling well and can't eat ice cream.
while we were walking in orchard, they were like trying to make me and Siman hold hands,or walk side by side.zZz

Went to Heerens and took neoprints(now that reminds me,i forgot to take out of my wallet)and me and Song Boon went to eat wanton mee.
Leanne,Jingen and Gloria had to go off,so they all hug with each other,felt quite sad actually cause i won't be able to see them much ler.

Walked around Heerens and they found a top which they find it nice,Siman hesistated to buy cause it was quite expensive.so they say that i pay first and she return me later,but i guess i give it to her as a birthday cum christmas present.Bee Yong never came,so we went to ate dinner at Taka's Breeks,which have really delicious food and drinks there.

Then took train to JP,Siman droped off at Jurong East.Then met up with Jacqueling and ate Ice cream(ok i loss to the tempting ice cream)and took bus home.

ok...that should be all i guess,tmr going out again,i am so broke=.=
but i guess once in a while is ok bah.

Happy Holidays to all,and to all juniors,remeber to do your holiday homeworks>.>
lolZ.jkjk.Good Luck to all and have a fun holiday.

maybe i kind of agree with what Song Boon says,i know too little ppl in our school>.<
guess it has become a habit since primary school.
Will miss all the good and bad times we been through with your.May your be happy always.

2007-12-07T07:16:00.000-08:00

I BACK!!!The trip to China was really fun,learn alot of new stuff and ate alot of great food although I was sick for a few days.Got to make some new frens there too,will miss you guys.

ok...the plane flight was not as fun as I expected,was quite uncomfortable actually.I dunnoe what to write now...just feel...so bored I guess..is like nobody is here to bother me...not like when I was in China..

Well really hope to meet up with you guys,though I dun think it will be that soon cause I need to find part time job.

Well thats all I going to blog for now,don't think i will blog the whole trip,but i could send you some pictures if you wan.BTW those who want me to send you the photo,sms me yeah.

2007-11-16T00:55:00.000-08:00

My 80th post,and the best memories i had...

yesterday was Grad Night,the ballroom was larger than last year and was really a beautiful place with all the crystal ball hanging around.Everyone was dress in their best outfit and were all very dashing and beautiful.Everyone started to take photos when we arrived and soon after the dinner started.

We had table games and everyone was having their time.we ate and talked untill everything was over.However,we did not left just yet,all of us were taking photos in groups or individuals photos.I did not really took that much myself with my phone,but i actually found it weird that nobody cried or anything.

After that i went over to Xiu's hse with HY,Alicia,Shawn,LS.starting they play poker for a while than LS left 1st.after that we went into Xiu's room and talked abt ghost stories.Shawn left not long after.Alicia was sleeping when we will talking about the stories althought she managed to catch some part of the stories HY and Xiu said.Then dunnoe how or when we started to talked abt other stuff and Alicia joined in by that time.They were all hitting each other with the pillows oftenly and we laugh and joked about alot of other stupid stuff.Then we were tired and we squeezeeeee onto Xiu's bed.but was a little bit too small and Alicia was constantly making Xiu's untill HY cannot ta han than when to the floor and sleep.I managed to lay down on the bed as HY was sleeping on my legs be4 that.i nearly bump in Xiu head too cause we were sharing 1 pillow.however,Alicia was constantly talking abt something and i went to the floor and join HY.Alicia took the chance and did "foot message"for Xiu and Xiu also went to the floor and sleep,while Alicia slept on the bed with no pillow cause HY took all of it down since she was noisy.

Today,I left 1st cause i got to go scl for the breifing for my overseas trip.Sry that i left without notice,did not want to wake your up.Than dunnoe y but Mr Chai and Miss Heng catch my hair=.=
i was like....hello!!but nvm...since if for the school's image when we go overseas..guess i cannot dye hair too then.

feeling really tired now...but cannot sleep cause later at night cannot sleep than tmr morning need to go out also...well will really miss your guys and teachers...heard that Miss Lim quited her job at YCSS...I was like...WAT!!!!HOW CAN THIS HAPPEN!!!now i cant find her at school ler..heard that she changed school or something...but wish everyone to be sucessful in gettin into the school or course they want and may teachers be happy always.

2007-11-13T00:57:00.000-08:00

Os are finally over!!!now left grad nite and the overseas trip that i need to prepare...still not sure about what to wear though...cause today they said nobosy would be following the theme...

feeling bored at home...nth to do...play...eat...play...sleep...so boring...and man...whats with the peoples' attidude online...so rude and...childish...

well...now that everything is over...can rest ler...dun need to be so stress up ler...now need to wait for results...suddenly started playing maple again>.>weird but true...i find it strange myself...but one of my maple friends said that...maybe becoz i am bored of all the stupid vulgar and childish ways of dota...maybe i am...

dun think i will really play on my com now...or going online...well..will post soon

2007-10-13T12:43:00.000-07:00

Yawn~~why did I even bother to do this..damn i must be too bored..

changed my blogskin again,took me quite some time..all the background pictures and everything..

This is the final post,i hope for now...must really contorl myself already...2 more weeks and thats it..

I was quite surprised when i found out that i got 2nd in class..Dom got 1st while haziq got 3rd..i nvr even getting better grades than haziq..since both of them spend large amount of time studying.

My sis got back from HK,she bought alot of tibits,guess I worried for nothing.

Can't think of anything to blog now...there was something on my mind but I just can't remember...guess it is nothing important...than i suddenly remember wat i told my sis...i might forget wat i wanted to do or things i might forget...but actually,it might be because i dun wan to remember about it at all...well..thats all for now.too sleepy to think or type..

2007-10-08T08:32:00.000-07:00

hm...after looking at other ppls blog...i felt quite..weird actually...everyone is working hard for their Os someway or another...and i am here...blogging at ard midnight when i could be studying or resting for tmr..stupid mouse spoiled again...i think i must make a vow like wat dom did>.>
maybe that would push me abit harder.

i suddenly come to think of this stupid question again....poly or Jc?if i could go the 3 months thingy..should i?my mum said that it would be an experience...even if i dun decide to go to a jc..like wat my sister when through..but to me..i am so different from my mum or my sister...i am not good at spending time with ppl...in fact..i dun talk much to other ppl in scl do i?other than the frens around me...i just suddenly..felt so...down..maybe i am thinking too much again..damn...how i wish my godsis is here...or my sis..

is my Os goin to be wat happened durin my PSLE?i seriouslly hope not...i remember wat Miss Lee and a few other teachers said...when ppl receive their Os results,there will surely be some that will be jumping with joy,there would also be some who would be crying...I encountered that..not once...but a couple of times actually..during my PSLE,a few of my frens cried...when my sis receive,she was silent...i knew she was disappointed..i really dun wish anybody to cry when they receive their results...maybe for tears of joy...but i certainly hope not for the worst..

maybe 1 last thing off my head for..the frens who had support me..the ppl that jus walk passed me but still made an impact in me...the ppl who might had lost in touce with me...the ppl who had guided me...the ppl who taught me great stuff..the ppl who took care of me...the ppl who I knew that loss hope in their life..the ppl that i am going to meet in the near future...may God bless them all and guide them to their goal in watever they want to do...

2007-10-08T06:16:00.000-07:00

hm...how long has it been..so close to the Os already..man....i am so LAZY..zzzzz..damn....

Am I too kind to other ppl?or i just do wat i think i wan to do...i seriouslly dunnoe if it is a bad thing or a good thing...guess i go with my heart want me to do...

Scl has got more boring i guess...everybody wished to study at home rather than going scl for lessons...guess it might be more quite ard i guess...

Prelim scores....L1R4 of 18(i think)...far from my target....guess i need to put in more effort...

the animes i was looking forward to suddenly bombarded this month...this jus sux....wat a "great" timing..zzzz..well at least most of my animes are finishing...

another i noticed about myself....I hate to be with a grp of ppl...but i hate to be alone as well...funny huh??werid man.....

alot of thoughts went through my mind...over and over again...things that happened...things that i wished it happened...and alot of crappy stuff...but 1 things for certain..i really wish i had more determination...to push me forward...just a little more...

2007-09-19T05:14:00.000-07:00

ok..a quiz that Huimin passed to Dom than to Darren than to me.lolZ

Rules of the game:
Each player of the game starts off with 10 weird things/habits of little known facts about themselves.

People who get tagged must write in their blog of their 10 weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly . At the end of it , you must choose 6 people and list out the names .

-I don't like to go out(well..most of the time>.>)

-I play games for 5 hours straight once

-I only have 3 different shoes that I can wear when I go out

-I have Tarot cards at home which I used when I am bored

-I always show offline when I logged in to MSN

-I don't like my surrounding to be quite and whould always listen to music(ok..other then when i am doing serious stuff)

-I go out to places on my own(Is this really weird??ppl say that it is weird)

-I don't like insects

-I trust others no matter who they are(ok..i not sure..but my family says that i trust ppl to easily)

-I am basically lazy to do anything(ok..most of the time i guess..i just feel like lying around and do nothing and listening to music for hours)

ok...thats 10 for you..but the six person...maybe i can pass on that because I would not wan to force anyone to do this.but anyone can do this quiz when they feel like it i guess.(*.*)

2007-09-19T04:53:00.000-07:00

Prelims are over~~damn i think i did so badly for this exam.blame myself for not studying befor hand i guess.

Got back physic,eng paper2 and maths today.was quite surprised that i was able to score 72 for my physic as i totally left 1 page blank.maths was also a miracle as i manage to pass..althought it was only 57 though..eng just pass...25..

heard from them that only 7 ppl passed geog for my class.Well...expected for my class.Today was doing nothing much of studying at school.

tomorrow is LS's birthday,wish him a early happy birthday and may all his wishes come true.

well..thats all the good stuff i guess...now i seriously wan to hit or slash something=.=
damn of all times why now...when i just finished my prelims and gettin happy about it for a moment.

zzzz...i always thought that as a family we should be truthful to each other...but thats not the fact...its fine if you dun wan the other party to feel hurt..but lying...i seriouslly dun know what is the truth and wat are lies now...my sis even said that she feels like lying to herself...and that she dunnoe how to communicate with my parents anymore...than me?i dun even talk to them much..only the fact that they talk to me..and all i reply is yes or no...my sis said that my mum had changed since we moved..saying that money is the thing that she is only concerned about...but i guess she dun wan us to suffer i guess...but i just hate it when both of them just keep pushing us around..it so damn FKing irritating....saying that they are the only one responsible and not the "other party"...i so dun wan to care about it...but i cant not care about it...and the way my sis and my mum talks now is always quarreling..i am so damn tired of all this..

ok nvm about that..thats all the stuff that i wan to let out of my mind for now...jus let it store here for the time being...will blog soon after i got my results

cant wait for the trip to China at the end of the year...goin for 12 days as wat Miss Ker said..Nanjing,Hang zhou,Su zhou and Shang Hai!!i can't believe that i am able to visit so many places when it is my first goi oversea on a plane.

2007-09-05T13:31:00.000-07:00

two months since i post,dun think anybody would come and see my blog anyway.

1 week holidays,but need to catch up with my studies,problem is I can't really stop myself from playing.Guess it became a habit.

Being watching a few anime,the two anime shown on Central every week and three other anime online.The story line is just surprising i guess,just watched finish one of it and that guy in the anime is just...despo or something.

teachers day had passed too,time really flies by when you never notice it,been in the school for four years already.'O' levels are coming too.I guess i am too lazy or something.

Well school jus don't feel welcoming to me anymore,not with the teachers,but all the stuff and everything that just happens in a split moment.I don't really understand myself anymore i guess,confued and everything.time to seat down and think awhile i guess...

well,thats all for now..don't feel like typing anymore stuff.guess thats why my mom says that i kept too much problems in my heart,but thats my nature,cause i don't wish to create trouble for anybosy around me...i just wish them to be happy and well..

2007-07-27T23:23:00.000-07:00

3 days of Adam Khoo's "I Am Gifted,So Are You" workshop.Chance to skip class.lol.But I really Love This workshop,the trainers are friendly and funny.They might be fierce at times but they would explain to us why there are fierce.So i will try to explain how the 3 days when for me.

Day 1-At first i thought Adam Khoo himself whould come down to talk to us,but he didn't and the 1st trainer that came it was Melvin.Melvin was a very funny guy and he likes to joke with us.He also told us about his life and what he did during his school times.He also told us that looks dooes not matter as the people around you would only care about their own looks.He told us"Never let other people's Opinion becomes yous reality."He also taught us Discipline which is "Do the things that you don't like which will benefit you".He also taught us the Ultimate Sucess Formula and take 100% responsibility and don't blame,complane and follow others.

Than it was Fraddy,a nice guy who was fun to joke around with.He also told us about his life.He taught us the 10 steps study formula and also super memory by linking the words and making up a story.He also told us about the Brain and that genius can be nurture.He also taught us how to change negative toughts to positive ones.

At night it was Pamela,a pretty and "musical"person.She told us her life too and that she was from LASELL(sorry it i spell wrongly).She loves to sing on certain words and words starting with the letter "P".She taught us speed reading ,Poreto Principle,how to find keypoints/words and Mind-Maps.

Day 2-Day two was Pamela who go 1st.can't really remember what she did but most of them are speed reading and key words pratice.Melvin taught us to cherish what we have,well most of us cried...don't want to talk much about it.can't really remember on the 2nd day,sorry.

day 3-hm....can't really remember too,briefly remember abit abit.but i can't really explain anything but I really got the thx the people who gave me motivation to go up and talk.Edward,Siang Lin,Chaqif.

Thats all i got to say i guess.Better to say it out than type it out.

2007-07-18T07:34:00.000-07:00

Took this test from Hong Yong's Blog

You are The Magician
Skill, wisdom, adaptation. Craft, cunning, depending on dignity.
Eleoquent and charismatic both verbally and in writing, you are clever, witty, inventive and persuasive.
The Magician is the male power of creation, creation by willpower and desire. In that ancient sense, it is the ability to make things so just by speaking them aloud. Reflecting this is the fact that the Magician is represented by Mercury. He represents the gift of tongues, a smooth talker, a salesman. Also clever with the slight of hand and a medicine man - either a real doctor or someone trying to sell you snake oil.
What Tarot Card are You?Take the Test to Find Out.

2007-07-18T06:55:00.000-07:00

My 70th post>.>

Today was as usual,went to school and lessons continued.Mr Soong helped me with the construction part of the folio.Come to think of it,I forgot to take it from LS.Mr Tan never came again and Miss Chen took over and taught us transformer.P.E was as chaotic as ever,play a sports which was like tennis.Ball was flying around everywhere in the hall.Talk about violence.Got hitted by the ball a few and it was really painful.After recess was maths.Mrs Ng wanted us to hand in the homework(which on 5 handed in yesteday and she was furious about it)than continued to do the paper she gave.Eng was the same for me,Slept awhile and did not do much.

After school,wanted to go home at first but was lazy as I had Eng enrichment class later.Went to the back to play soccer with the guys and I actually scored 3 goals.beginner's luck I guess.I was wet all over as it rain of a while and there was puddles around.The most funny thing is Haziq and Qayyun fell down and there were wet.

After that went to rest in the canteen,helped out Zhong Rong,Damian and Siang Lin with the transformation(actually it was because I was too bored and wanted to find things to do.)Dom kept shooting ice at people and Andy's graph paper actually got wet.Edward went to washed it(yes!!washing paper!!)and it actually didn't torn.

Than went for Mr Bartons class and he actually brought a parachute.It was huge and it was fun playing with it.It was the first time I saw a parachute and actually came in touch with it.

Now Dom,Darren and me have a new signature phrase."Read between the line,Fill in the blank,Aiya why so difficult"it actually stands for F*** you.lol

Student Council having problem again...really don't want to involve in it but I guess I can't stand around and watch.But what can I do..i really wish to help Mr Wong once more.

I been talking to myself alot too...dunnoe why...all teh silly stuff..bleh...nvm...at least I am happy for now..

2007-07-16T03:54:00.000-07:00

Today went to school than found out in the morning that today was chinese listening.Luckly I did not took out my entry proof.

POA test was the worst,only took a look at the answers in the morning.did not managed to complete in time.Went for Eng and Miss Lee never come,Rare that she is sick,guess she got sick because of telling us that cool joke(crippled prawn=lame sia).Miss /kong took over the class and she also blur blur.Than Chinese came,Miss Loh was not around but the whiteboard got some notes."Fri nvr off A/C(air con).pls remember to off!"than i was like..HUH!?!i thought we left early on friday and switch off liao...or at least i did>.>come to think of it..this morning come in the class like got the smell of ciger..and there was footprint on the table the past few weeks too..hm..wonder who sia..

Did'nt do much during DnT,just trying to draw my final design..man..my drawing sucks!!!I need DRAWING ASSISTANT.lol than when for break before listening.

Mr Ong suddenly call me,thought he wanted to scold me for my long sideburn(Mr Soong did),but it was about a 3 full day(yes i mean FULL) workshop by Adam Khoo.Can skip lesson for this three days(25-27)but it's like...8-9P.M.Looks like i cannot go TKD next week.I am so SCREWED.Sir is so not going to let me go for grading=.=

Listening started,the teachers went to the wrong class>.
Need to do homework now.it has been ages since i log in to MSN..but actually.i did>.>jus that appear offline.

2007-07-15T08:05:00.000-07:00

I spent my weekend at the other side of Singapore,Downtown East.It took me 1 hr to travel there.For what freking reason you might think I go there for,its is because the CosFest is held there.

On Sat,I went with LS and we were pretty late as we sort of lost our way.We managed to found the place and there was not much ppl there.However I found out alot of anime which I was clueless about and only took some pictures of Final Fantasy Figures.Also saw my primary school friend,Marie, along with her sister and friend managing a booth.She sold some accesories and i think she going to sell it online soon.Got home quite late that night and was very tired.

Today,Sunday,I went earlier hoping to see more cosplay.Reached there about 5.Saw alot of different cosplay as compared to yesterday.Different type of Cloud from FF7 and FF7AC with different type of Buster Sword.There was also Organization XIII from Kingdom Hearts 2,along with Sora.SOS-dan from the Melancholy of Suzumiya Haruhi.Haseo and Kite from .hack G.U and Chii from Chobits,alot of Rozen Maiden,and even a chibi gundam with a few gundan seed destiny charecters.Even Archer and Saber from Fate/Stay Night.I took quite alot of pictures and will try to upload them if possible(which I failed,will try again some other time)Organization won the best team cosplay,the individual and the special award who will represent Singapore to Japen are anime I dunnoe of..My Friend cosplay as Kairi today.Help her to packed up and talked for awhile before I head for home.Reached home around 10.

Really hope to be able to cosplay next year.Now must concentrate on my 'O'.final lap must go full blast!!!

2007-07-10T03:19:00.000-07:00

Another month had pass,another month nearer to the 'O' levels.Trying to catch up with my work,althought still lazy and did not do much homework,trying to erase this bad habit i have.

School was as usual,Miss Irene Lee and Mr Tan did not came to school althought they did gave us work to do.Maths when through shear basic,which could be easily understand since i already learn it at my tuition.Chem when to the lab and we tried to do a full pratical paper by ourselves.I did well just that i did not record it in the proper way.English was talking about yesterday's ST talking about the 16 year old boy and the 24? year old girlfriend who killed the husband.Saying that parents should be arrested for not teachering the children well.but actually,i felt that we cannot blame much on the parents if the children does not want to listen to them at all.i was half asleep and only manage to catch one out of three points Miss Lee said.Got snap in the ear again as i was caught sleeping=.=

After school was eng remedial,Miss Lee went for oral examination outside so Miss Kong took over.I "volunteer" myself for her oral trail and i did quite well other than the "th","ed" and the "ts".i could not do the "ts" and the "th" which Alicia mangaed to.

After that went to Mr Barton's class.this week was the 2nd week and his lesson was really fun and funny.But i always fell asleep with anything related to eng but i mangaed to kept myself awake.We went throught alot of stuff like oral and startings for a compo.

Really tired now and having a headach...dun think i can go for tuition..even if i did i think i would fell asleep again...will blog soon.

P.S HAPPY BIRTHDAY DOMONIC,NEXT UP IS HON XUEN!!!

2007-06-14T19:33:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was really a happy anf fun day to me..i went out with a few(actually 5) of my primary school friends.Jacky,Chen Yew,Wei Han,Wan Rong and Larry.

We went to Cathey Cineleisure(dunnoe spell wrong or not,But i guess your know where i mean.)to watch Fantastic 4,Jacky never changed much,always the funny guy.Actually we did not changed much other than our size i think.

I did not have much time to spent with then as after that i had to rush for tuition,so i left after the movie.However,i was really happy to be able to see them again after so long and manage to talk to them like the old times.

Thx guys..i will never forget yesterday..

2007-06-12T02:51:00.000-07:00

It sure has been a long time since i bloged..my birthday passed,Mid year had already finished too and even my MT'O'levels paper..got really bad results for my mid year..

the 3rd week of holidays...time seems to go faster than usual..and my DnT haven finish yet...zzzz.still have a stack of holiday homework undone...and tuition just get tougher as my cousin have more work for me to do..but thats for my own good I guess...

felt so empty...dunnoe y also...my mom asked me y I am so addicted to games and my computer...I had no ideas too..guess maybe I am occupied to do something at home when no one is around...I suddenly felt so lonely when i think about it...guess I can't help it too...since my mom need to earn money for the family...

I am sort of happy than my primary school friends said they wan to meet up...but I still not sure what they planning to do...hope we had fun doing whatever they planed..

My leg had been hurting this few days...dunnoe wat is wrong with it...but hope it is not serious..

well....nth much to write abt for now...will blog soon i guess..

2007-05-17T07:07:00.000-07:00

got back a few of my results....really did badly for most of my subjects..maths paper 1 get 39/80..POA got 45 /100..ss got 25/50..phy did not really did well...hiaz...need to buck up soon..

Mr Wong said something again today..that he was unhappy/sad for 5 minutes after he marked our paper.hm..he said he believe he did his best and he need to move forward..wise words indead..as usual..

We must learn to look forward...and learn from our mistakes...and not stop as the mistake that you made..

I hope all of you got good results for your MYE..but if you did'nt,i wish you good luck for ur studies.

today was joel birthday,and they "celebrated" as usual.happy birthday to him.

2007-05-16T05:17:00.000-07:00

It has been a long time since i last bloged=.=as usual.

Exams are over for now..think i did badly for it..guess that is wat i get for being lazy.

The maths paper was a total killer to me.all the question need to think like mad...expected it since i think it was Mr Liew who set the paper 2...

not in the mood so i did not do anything much now...my cousin told me to relex abit for now,than go full blast next week,and he also told me to plan well...hm...

My sister is banning me from playing(as expected cause of my maths)unless it is weekends..but also can play a few hours..guess i need to control myself too...

Yesterday was Debra's birthday,and today is Rachel's Birthday..Wish them hapi birthday and may all your wishes come true>.<
sorry that i did not buy anything for ur.a little broke this month.

i wonder wat the teachers will say abt me during meet-the-parent seesion..

well...will blog soon(hm...maybe on my birthday)

2007-04-24T00:11:00.000-07:00

Today was Gu Zheng SYF,got up early in the morning as i scared i will overslept.reach school at ard 6.10 and most of them was already there.Got change and start praticing.Than put on make up and the girls actually took 2 hours to do that(done by outside ppl that Miss Ker found) and we were off to the Singapore Confernce Hall.They started humming and singing out the tune on the bus,i was tired so i fell asleep untill we will abt to reach.

When we reach,it started to rain heavily,when we got our Gu Zheng,the box was wet but luckily the Gu Zheng was not.At first i thought a group of 15 ppl was small,but there was another school that was only 12.When into the tuning room,did not do much to the gu zheng except a few of them.than we were off to stage.

On stage,i felt quite nervous at 1st,but every went well when i started playing(other than a few wrong notes.xD).but i think that it was the best we ever did and every agreed.Saw the other school's performance and they were very good.Than we left early and went back to school.

At school,we was waiting for Miss Ker sms as she stayed there for the results.when the sms came,we could not believe it.we thought Miss Ker was bluffing us.but after alot of calls and after asking Mdm Teo,we really did got gold!!The girls went screaming and we were very happy untill some of them cried.

We waited for Miss Ker to come back,and we found out 6 scl get gold including us.Than Miss Ker said she is going to buy pizza for us.We chated and waited in the canteen untill the pizza came earlier than it said it would.But Miss Ker did not eat it as she was not feeling well and she went to vomit a few times.Hope she would feel better tmr.

Did not went for remedial,told Miss Lee that i was very tired,and she allowed me to go 1st.

Hope every1 will rest well,and thx for all the ppl who encourage us and wish us luck.thx Miss Ker and my gu zheng teachers for all the hard work.And also dun forgot all the Gu zheng members!!!

2007-04-13T08:46:00.000-07:00

Today sure is a tiring day for me...Friday the 13..lol..

Lessons as usual..Miss Lim gave a stack of notes which is for the whole year(Sec3,4).She say if we read 1 page per day,by 'O' levels we should read it around 4 times to 10 times.And is starting from today.She also gave us WS to do.She sure is planning forward for us.

DnT was as usual too,drawing my stupid ideas..zzz.worst is I forgot to bring my Folio back..lolZ

Recess was a rush...Dominic and I was lazy to line up so we waited,but we forgot that today was Friday,when we bought the food,the bell rang and we had to eat everything up in like 5 mins,and we did.

Did not do much for MT,was dismissed earlier as Gu Zheng.However I did not help out as I need to rush home and get my Maths Exercise book.Worst of all is when I was running back to school,it started to rain.and it turned heavier like every min.

I had to change into class 4E1 Class T-shirst as Miss Ker and Miss Lim forced me to.

Gu Zheng was tiring too,SYF is around the corner.Need to pratice more...

After that when to the hall,the councillors was still there and Andy told me there is a problem with the out going councillors..zzzz.trouble again...Mr Wong was so unhappy that only a few EXCOs could make it.

Than I rushed home and when for TKD,was shock that Sir Zhi Xiong was there...die liao...pumping and more pumping as I forgotten my patterns.However luckily,he did not say anything today but today training was still as tiring as usual under him.(my knuckles red liao)
I stayed back today,and i learn how to defend and attack with a stick(pole to be exact).

Today was a fun and tiring day.tmr still got flag day..zzzz...

2007-04-10T03:44:00.000-07:00

It is going to be a month since i last blog...lolZzzz.too lazy too update i guess.

March has been a eventful month to me i guess..sports day..exams..holidays and even my fever...it is in the past i guess so no point talking about it, right?

April has started not long,this week is the 2nd week of april..feel very tired this few days and my brain is working very slow,and i really mean slow.it too longer than i used to do some work..dunnoe wat is wrong with me.However i am happy for the concern i got from my friends and teachers when i was sick.and sorry that i did not reply to the tags as i don't really check my own blog now.lol..

SYF is coming soon...in fact it is jus around 2 weeks away..feeling anxious as i really could not follow up with the speed.it is really getting faster and faster...but i guess this means i need to train more.

Miss Ker was very angry yesterday during Chinese..alot of us did not complete the worksheet that she gave us(i did not really touch it as i got it when i came back).She is going back to her old ways of doing things.You want to do u do,you dun wan to do than dun need to take.It must be really hard to teach a language subject...

Was playing alot the past few months(and i really do mean ALOT).need to buck up already..Thursday got meeting..dunnoe if i wan to go or not..hope nth big is going to happend..

Thats all i guess..really cannot think of wat to write now.finding a new blog skinxD

2007-03-09T16:31:00.000-08:00

haha,it has been so long since i touch my blog.while holidays are coming, hope every one happy holidays!!

alot of staff had happened..but i dun really wan to talk abt the bad things that had happened.

yesterday went to had lunch wif the EXCOs and Mr Wong,it was really nice but had Mr Wong to spend alot of money...we than went back to school to help out in the Meet The Parent Session.did not do much and only did some supervising.

Was quite happy wif my Common Test results,POA got an A1,Maths A1,Science..i think is B3,Chinese D7,others i dun remember.

it has been a very fast term..hope every one is having a good time in the 1st term.

2007-02-24T02:06:00.000-08:00

Holidays are over..all the events like CNY celebration..dun really wan to say much abt wat happened..

On CNY eve,went to my grandma house(dad side) after eating dinner..did not really want to go but ya...respect and everything..so went there wif my sis.than she told me a shocking thing wich i can only keep it to myself cause if will involve alot of people.but i really think...wat is wrong with the ppl nowadays.

On CNY,went to my grandma house(mum side) as usual every year after mass.did not took any photo but all my cousins were so beautiful and handsome.dun really talk much wif them other than the guys.After that when to my nanny house for awhile and when home.but had to leave again to eat dinner at my 2nd aunt's house.than i went home early wif my cousin.

Nth much happened for the next two days.stayed at home and play all day.

not really keeping up wif my studies..zzz.did not wen to kheck house warming also..so sorry..was too tired..hope ur had fun there.

2007-02-16T08:21:00.000-08:00

today was Chinese New Year Celebration. was suppose to have half day lessons but the EXCOs name was on the helpers,so did not attend any lessons.

Was take in-charge of the library while Dom for the TL room.was a bit messy at 1st because it was hard to catch wat Miss Loh or Miss Kang is alking abt as they talk veri fast.well...problems here and there but manage to go on smoothly other than some problems wif the puppet item.

After that saw Rachel and tag along wif Shawn and her to JP.went to Bentobox to eat as both of them said that they have not eaten there be4.Rachel was so good to us and treated us lunch.Shawn had Pasta,Rachel has a set meal while i had Rice with tempura.after that wen to a jigsaw puzzle shop and saw all the beauiful puzzles.Rachel bought 1 for Shawn as a advance birthday present.so good sia...lol..

P.S...thx Shawn,Rachel,Siang Lin,Xiu Wei for the gifts on Valentine's Day..Sry i did not prepared anything. Wish everybody HAppy Chinese New Year!!

2007-02-12T03:58:00.000-08:00

hm...did not use the computer this few days,dunnoe y also..

today was the worst i think...Gu zheng ended so late...6.55p.m...zzz

starting of the day bid farewell to Shak,who is goin to OBS.than things go on as usual untill recess.Saw Andy crying,1st time i saw him cry untill so bad..went to ask around and Yong An said that Mdm Ow "bully" her...i was like..WTF!!!I seriouslly think wat could she do that cause her to make Andy cry untill so bad..but did not went to find out since Andy was in a better mood later.

After school saw some Seniors,they fare well for their 'O' lvls.wonder if i could do as well as them..

after school,went to Maths remedial for a while and when to Gu Zheng.than the same old things happened again...the teacher just keep on talking and talking.i really starting to find her irritating but nth much i can do...

Well thats all...the DAy after tmr will be Valentine's Day...the event was more bad than i expected to be...still have so many things to do...zzzz

2007-02-02T01:34:00.000-08:00

hm....guess i go a little out of emotion today...dunnoe wat is wrong wif me this wk...feeling so frustrated this week..hope nth bad will happen next week...

for all 4e3 students..pls get ur maths file rdy as Mrs Ng wan to scold us liao..."that wat she said to me"

today was another day...draggy....and really feeling down...dunnoe y...but things lighten abit durin MT...but it was totally a horrible day i think...after scl had meeting wif the IE and EXCOs..was not really thinking abt staff...than when to play Basketball...did not touch the ball for like how long...than suddenly alo of ppl came...play a match........nth else i wan to say liao....although i know...sry guys...

on my way home i was thinking...wat am i good at...to say the truth..i dn think i am good at anything at all...sports or games...i only do the thing that i am good at from young...which is "copy and adapt"..

well...need to rush things out for Valentine's day..hope everything will go smoothly...will update soon

2007-01-29T03:26:00.000-08:00

well...wanted to blog "yesterday" but did not as it was late and everybody was asleep so i did not wan to wake my family up.

On Sat,went to meet up wif Darren,Edward,Chaqif,Haziq,Hong Yong,Cheng Hao,Zhong Rong,Ze Yi to watch the soccer match beween Sg and My.was late as i got my lunch my mum bought for me which i did'nt knew.than was playing PSP/DS,talking on the MRT.when we got there,was thinking of walking or taking bus.I was lazy to wait for the bus so i suggested to walk,and we did as i and hy know how to walk there.

When we reach the stadium,the waiting line to buy the tickets was not long.but as we were talking abt money and staff,suddenly the line was like...WOAH!!!!freaking long.when we bought our tickets we were so hapi.not long after,the line was gone and they said that the tickets was sold out.a little later and we would have miss the tickets.phew...

we walked around and found KFC and Mc,they went to ate at KFC while i and Chaqif find an ATM but failed to so,so we only drink as the place was free re-fill like the past.than Augestine(sry if i spell wrong) joined us and we walked back to the stadium.than we go some posters and it was nice.than we waited ouside for a while and went in while Edward and Zhong Rong waited for Damian and Zhi Kai(Hon Xun could not make it).We manage to find a good seat and waitied like 4 hrs untill the match starts.
The match was intense...alot of shouting,"scolding",jeering and cheering.did not want to mention much in details but being there is not bad.Sg won in the end.

then we were all over the place as it was raining and alot of ppl was around.we decided to to meet at the MRT station and things got worst when we reach...no train!!!lol..we decided o take taxi while some took Damian's father car.we waited quite long as taxi was hired/busy/on call...zzzz.we all reached home late.i reached home at 2+ as i still when to buy things to eat.
it was a really fun day...

well...thats all..althought sunday was my grandmother's birthday but nth much happen i guess.will update soon.

2007-01-25T06:46:00.000-08:00

sian...today totally nvr get to use the computer as my mum was playin internet games..

DnT so hard to do...zzzz some more need to hand in tmr and i still haven finish yet..

today meeting a little tense,dunnoe y...and i need to change my project...cause Mr Wong said it was too late to hold a survey...guess i cauculate again...

When Poa Lesson goin to finish,suddenly there was quarreling again...over whether it was SS or POA remedial..that got Mr Wong a litle angry and he walk out of he class after packing...Qayyum also got scolded by him as he ask the wrong thing at the wrong time...again...dunnoe wa is wrong wif them...wats wrong wif POA or SS....still remedial right??

dun really care liao...crazy one they....will post soon

2007-01-22T02:40:00.000-08:00

zzzzz...lesson are sure gettin boring his few days...hope things will get better.

Eng was interesting,and that is so very rare...but the work she give is still abit hard to me..PE was as usual,running and jumping..than recess came...Andy look angry than,expected this to happened often i guess...and i dunnoe wat he is going to do if the councillors get better wif their duties...bell rang and i tried to stop ppl from buyin food but they did not listen to me a all...sheezzz..felt so powerless...now i get wa Dom mean...

Miss Ker was angry i think,since he class was sooooo quite when i went bak...but lessons was as usual...than Maths test,dun think there is any problem...i hope.Geog was the worst...need to stand as i forgot to bring WB..still need to copy alot of staff..

after that was remedial and Gu Zheng...when abit late and did not do much.i went o a Gu Zheng performance yesterday and they were good...

P.S. Debra dun push yourself,if u are really sick than u need to rest or else ur fever will jus get worst.btw everybody rest well and dun get sick.still need to rush dnt,will update soon...

2007-01-17T02:10:00.000-08:00

hm...today was okok,nth big happened i guess.but starting to get busy wif both CCA and studies.

CCA part,Gu Zheng goin SYF so i guess i really need to train up already.i sure slag alot i guess,but need to follow up wif the others liao.

Student Councill,Mr Wong gave me a project to do.quite interesting as i did not do much last year so this year i goin to step down wif a nice full-stop.btw to all councilllors,NEXT THURSDAY MORNING THERE WILL BE A MEETING.yup it is in the morning,and Andy will no be leading the meeting so Siang Lin will lead.hope tha nth big will happened.

Studies is not really good or bad i guess.need to finish my homework on time...which i always failed to do so.also rushing on my POA project,hope we can finish it by tmr.

well...thats all i guess.btw i copy this from Mr Wong POA leaders time-table
"What the mind can conceive, is wat the mind can achieve"

2007-01-15T03:22:00.000-08:00

zzzzz....i felt so horrible after Chinese for no reason.felt pain at my chest.When i breath or when i turn my body...i still feel the pain even now...zzzz

nth much happened today,he only thing i fond interesting is that when i was goin down the block fom he uitility room after Gu Zheng,i was informed by them that the gate was locked both side and could not get out.maybe due to my sickness and was feeling abit "high",i could not wait and put down my bag and guess wat,i climbed over and jumped down from the 2nd floor.maybe it was due to my "tranings" of jumping from high places from primary scl untill now.i when to find Miss Ker but she told me to find the person wif the key at the office.i ran there but the cleck said she does no have he key and told Mr Gomez abt wat happen.luckly,he found the person wif the key and everybody manage to get out.Miss Ker told me nvr to do that again,but...i dun think i will be able to control myself if this hapened again.lol

will blog next time,still feeling horrible now.zzz.may everybody be blessed by God

2007-01-12T23:45:00.000-08:00

lol,long time no blog again.

2 wks after school started...already staring to hav problems in school...wat is wrong this year..but sad to say that i am totally freaking dun care abt anything this year other than my studies,Gu zheng and Student councill.i am jus so freaking irritated by all he stupid things that happened in school.

Studies jus got worst cause i skip a few lesson on he 1st and 2nd wk for the BIG events,but i am hapi to get to know more ppl and get to make a few friends.

wanted to post alot of things but think i will jus keep it in my heart and my head..u can say that i can be veri "ungentalman" this year and i may accidently hurt you wif wat i said or do,so before hand i would say that i am sorrrry...

2006-12-27T07:16:00.000-08:00

today was a tiring day...went to scl at 8am for the councillor retreat.after the retreat started,did alot of cheers and shouting.really shout like mad.now like no voice liao.

Andy as sick suddenly durin the retreat.heard from Mr Wong that he had gastric flu.

went to ate wif Mr Wong and Mr Liew at Sakura,really nice food but i not really the buffet kind of person.but i guess we have a fun time as usual.

Sad that Mr Liew will not be the council teacher-in-charge next year,also hear from Mr Wong that Miss Chia has married and is call Mrs Ho(i think) now.and also a new council teacher call Mr Lim.

still have alot of homework..lol...need to finish liao.

2006-12-16T03:46:00.000-08:00

wow..it has been ages since i last blog.lolZ.gomen gomen(sry sry),too lazy to blog liao.

Today i went to EXPO for the anime cosplay wif LS and his godsis.if asking who she is than go ask him yourself i guess.

If was really amazing to see all the different kinds of cosplay suit,like FMA,Bleach,Fate/Stay Night,Kingdom Hearts 2,FF7 AC and DOC,Gundam Seed Destiny,Death Note,Ouran High,Naruto,TRC and alot of others anime which i did not know.i sa some friends from CO camp who cosplayed as Tosaka Rin from FSN and also my primary scl friend which cosplay as Kairi from KH2.i also met some friends from TKD.i really like to thx her for lettin me know abt this event too.Amazing without me knowing,she had cosplay for 6 years.talk abt friends,lol,i did'nt know she cosplay for that long but i knew she cosplay.

She ask me this qus,will i ever cosplay?well...i guess i would if i could effort the suit,or maybe i would even cosplay next year if i could manage my studies well.i really wish to have the chance to cosplay.1 of my TKD friend ask if i would like to cosplay next year,since he is goin to cosplay too.well...i really hope i can manage my studies than..

still need to call the sec 3 councillors for their shirt size.will be bloggin soon i guess.

2006-10-11T05:18:00.000-07:00

nothing much to talk about...today POA all the accounts like veri funny.

This few month i was visiting a website,this website contains alot of anime wallpapers done by people,all the papers are very nice.if you are interested in it than visit the website www.animepaper.net

last paper tmr...good luck to all

2006-10-09T23:19:00.000-07:00

hm...yesterday was really stress for me...maths did not went well for both papers..hope i can pass my eng and 2 other subjects,than next year i will chiong all my other subjects that i failed liao..

yesterday night was strange to me..dreams..or my memories..i dunnoe..i kept waking up in the middle of the night..4 dreams in a row..really strange...did not slept well...

funny is one of my dreams...or maybe my mind tells me it is a dream...but i feel like i see or know that dream..a promise..but to who and wat did i promised...

a few papers more,hope i can do well,hope every1 will do well too!!

2006-10-02T04:25:00.000-07:00

today chinese paper did'nt really went that well..alot of things dunnoe how to do...well..nth i can to now..need to work hard for other papers...

Got alot of clues and tips for SS today...
hope this thursday paper will get better...

old problem coming back again...dunnoe y and it is veri irritating...well...nth i can do abt that also...

change my skin...a little plane but dun want too fancy also..later too hard to c again..

2006-09-21T04:27:00.000-07:00

Well today turn out to be all right..or so i think...i really got this feeling that something big happen...

dunnoe wat is happening at all...jus a few more weeks and everything will finish for this year..y must there always be problems?!?can't we jus be friends??or maybe my thoughts are too naive...

maybe wat my sister said is true...ppl changes..not from bad to good...but from bad to worst...

dun really care now...need to get pass final year exams...this few days i also veri weird...my brain and heart is not working properly or something...like i am not following my heart or something...wat i want to say or do..i jus sudden stoped...

went to NP today..all the workpieces and project were so good and some of the things i dunnoe also...

i like one of Mr Wong phrase..."What you are doing is always right because you have a reason to do it but doing the right thing at the wrong time is wrong..."

2006-09-18T08:09:00.000-07:00

Well it has been a long time since i blog...because i got my small little booklet ehich i write in so will not blog that much...

this few weeks..a little rush as exams are near...but i really cannot believe that things are starting again...some more it is so near the exams...wats wrong with them..i dun reli know wat happened...but dun really want to know also...

learn a few jap words..dunnoe if the translation is right or not..ai wa yume no mama de watsudzukanai:Love can't continue as a mere dream...

hope everything will be ok...violence cannot solve anything...even if it did...everything will not turn out ok at all...

May everybody do well for their exams and tests...

2006-08-21T07:06:00.000-07:00

Common test week..so did not blog much...

think i fail my maths and chinese..need to buck up liao..or else SA2 flop than die liao..

nth much happened...celebrated xy birthday last week?lol i STM sia...

btw...ls..i know wat u goin throught with ur family..or so i think...nth much i can help u with..cause i said to u be4 liao...all the things i said...dun reli think it worked...but nvm...dun want to get involve cause i hav no right to...it is ur familly problem...need to solve within ur family..

hope tmr papers not too difficult...may things settle well and no more problems pls...i am tired already...for this 3 years...

2006-08-10T05:35:00.000-07:00

did not blog for the past few days..lazy bah..my sister also play maple alot..lol..

did not want to talk abt the things that happen in scl durin the national day celebration...veri sian also..

yesterday,i spent the whole day watching an anime that my godsis mentioned..it is call "Fate/Stay Night"..not a bad anime but i really think the ending sux...sux badly...well this is wat happen to some anime anyway..

today did not do much also..wake up at 12pm becoze i slp late watchin the anime..than watchtv/play PS/watch my sis play maple untill 5 than i play com...not reli play...wanted to c the anime again but cannot c...dunnoe y..irritating sia...

more worst...tmr got scl..like after two days of holiday dun feel like goin back..some more is friday..lol...

hope tmr will be a better day...

[P.S. thx for the ppl who help me durin national day celebration..u should know wat i mean..]

2006-08-04T06:31:00.000-07:00

hm...today was not really a good or a bad day...

was tired in the morning...some more i have not complete my DnT and POA homework..than tried to rush the work but still did not finish..than need to copy 3 times...

than durin recess...nth much happened...or maybe alot of thing happen but i am not aware of it...

than got 2 test...the POA test was ok..ever1 was like asking me how to do..than the maths 1 i dun think got hope liao...

after scl did not do much...help out with the scouts a while than went home...

2006-08-02T06:00:00.000-07:00

seriouslly...it is gettin harder to blog...always got error 1..

ok for yesterday...dun want to talk abt it liao...cause it is in the past..lol..lazy to post also..

today was as normal..failed my chinese test cause i forgot to go find Miss Ker to finish the test..only got 18/50...T_T after chinese went to pass some staff to heidi to help me pass to xy..nth much actually...jus two stack of fullscape,lolZ..mus be heavy for her..

than was chem..was a veri light lesson..cause Miss Lim say wat she goin to teach is easy..

than after recess was geog...Mrs Er was angry with some of us as we nvr finish the work we will told to present..our group did the best..thats wat she said..lol... than was 3 periods was POA...every1 was tired...so Mr Wong gave quite alot of breaks than usual...but he manage to teach finish.. after scl got Gu Zheng..as usual dunnoe how to play..got scolded for not enuff pratice.. than there was a large group of the ppl from ex-E2...was quite hapi that we got to walk together again..althought we were in different groups..

hope tmr will be better..

2006-07-29T07:06:00.000-07:00

today was a veri fun day...

in the morning was veri tired..becoz wake up early to go DB...than ls was outside my house in the morning...thought we were late and may not get to row liao..but when we go Mc to eat..saw ryan they all there also...lolZ...thought dun need to go liao...

had fun rowing ..got pushed down the boat 3 times...than got punished becoz of rowing away the boat....dun care liao..lol..

than went to play LAN...ws say take taxi than when we took the taxi,the driver was talk abt things and XXX becoz we say abt geylang..lol..

than i rush home after that to change...went to the South-west CDC meeting..the place veri nice...and alot of others scl came also..than got other adults than they talk to us...veri funny...than i saw the Mayor and other MPs..than we talk abt staff...and i ate alot of the food...shawn also becoz nvr eat lunch..

today was tiring but really learn alot of staff..veri rare to get this kind of exp...hope i get the chance again...

2006-07-27T21:43:00.000-07:00

wow..today was the most interesting day i had for the past few weeks...

was nearly late today...was walking in the scl when the bell rang..i was like..sian..i dun want to be late or later mr Wong scold again...but luckily i made it..lolZ..

today the choir leaded the national song "we'll get there"..it was like so ccccccccooooooolllllldddddd..nobody sang i think..other than me and andy singing by the side bench there..lolZ..i always liked the national day songs...

went to the lab for eng..was suppose to do grp work but did not and my grp was spamming others ppl blog(jer,candis and h.y blog)

after that durin MT i did not really know wat happened but i think alex cried..i dunnoe wat happen as i was zZzzZZ..lol...

than durin CEP need to do a survey form...alot of staff which i did not know...or wat to fill into but jus anyhow fill..

than after scl played BB with ws they all..rusty liao..shoot like all nvr go in 1...was tired and rested and went to the library to do homework...did not do much and went to run 2.4..i finally got a C!!!can get gold again this year..so hapi...than went b to get staff again and play BB with ws they all again..and there was lightning went it strike we all sit down..lol...was veri funny..than walk home with ws when i saw him with OCK at lakeide...we talked abt staff and things that happened in scl...

hope tmr will be better...stupid now so late still need to go for tution...so tired also...

2006-07-25T06:56:00.000-07:00

another day past...

today was quite a boring day...1st time i listen to wat Miss Soh teach...got a little confused since i nvr listen to her be4 that so dunnoe wat she teaching..but durin remedial she teach us 1 by 1 if we got question..than i finnaly relize how to do..

durin dnt..i tried to draw Kingdom heats letters..was quite hard at 1st but started to get the hang of it..my folio veri slow..need to rush liao cause deadline is this friday..

well now i thinking my STM is gettin worst..i keep forgetting staff that i need to do..like washing my uniform...etc.

nth much i can do..maybe i jus nvr tried to remember it...

hope tmr will be a better day..sianZ..

2006-07-25T06:50:00.000-07:00

The opening of Ai Yori Aoshi..
a veri nice song..

Towa No Hana;flower of eternity

The seasons move on, leaving
The scent of the flowers blooming pale
The rain has stopped too, clouds in the sky
Are blown gently by the blue breeze

Both today and tomorrow
Alongside the times we walk
Our trembling thoughts will be there
Unchanging

Forever Forever
It blooms but never dies
The pounding of my heart never ceases
More than anyone, More than anyone
I gaze at you
With this feeling that never ends

That day, when we met
How many times in the world
has a miracle like this happened?
Whom shall I thank?

Ah, I know your future
will be perfect for me
There will be nights when I can't say it
Although I may cry

Forever Forever
It may pass, but it will not fade
In the wind, under the sky, I wait
If I believe If I believe
Then your smile
Will surely become my flower

Forever Forever
It blooms but never dies
The pounding of my heart never ceases
More than anyone, More than anyone
I gaze at you
With this never ending feeling

2006-07-19T06:55:00.000-07:00

another day past...today quite alot of things happened..or i think alot..

went to scl early becoz my sis needed to wake up early also..means i need to wake up earlier than her...

same old scl days...jus that today Miss Lim gave us alot of time to rest since she only teach the oxides..than Miss Chia class was abt personal accounts again..did not really heard wat she said..but i know need to do a personal account for the Titanic thing..

than after recess,Ze Yi was angry as his 1:chair was full of water.2:his pencil box and table was vandalized..well did not really know wat happened later but he was his usual self again later..than during POA got test..he called some of us out(the ones who scored A1 for the SA1)and said alot of staff...said we need to go study ourself also..

than early release becoZ goin to Ngee An PPoly for the DNT things..went there and was quite hapi to get to learn new staff..ls and heidi both burn their fingers,than ls finger got plasted..i was the 1st person to complete..than went to help the others...the thing we made is quite nice..

went back to scl...than saw the Gu Zheng ppl(gloria they all)than ade told me i need to play guitar...i was like...i forgot every thing liao how to play??

well..today was a nice day...hope tmr will be better..

2006-07-17T07:17:00.000-07:00

hm...having problem with the blog again...funny sia..

today alot of 3E2 ppl tio detention...reason more funny..becOz of throwing paperballs into the rubbish bin...

today early dismiss becoz of the 'O' lvl thing...well was quite hapi dun need to c the eng teacher again...

than ls,heidi,xy and me went to jp...did not want to go at 1st but ls drag me along...this month spent alot liao..need to go out less often..than half way i ps him..went back to find them but cannot find them so i went home..

well...alot of things happened within a short period of time..wanted to help but i think i cannot do nth at all..cause different ppl says different things..need to hear from other ppl views...

sometimes it is jus hard to decide on something...and do it..sometimes i jus feel so powerless...or maybe i am jus useless..lolZ..wat am i thinking..

today homework did not manage to finish..tmr sure die liao...as always...

2006-07-04T08:13:00.000-07:00

hm...veri long nvr blog liao...becoz of problem with my com..

well nth much i can write abt..quite busy this few days..becoz of the dikit barat thing this friday..than everyday need to stay back..sianZ....than holiday homework some nvr hand in also...

became a little Kingdom Heart freak liao..some times dunnoe y will think abt it..

today some1 ask me that qus..which i expected since i play true and dare with WS they all..i also not sure myself leh...but nvm..

this tursday got investiture..veri sian..need to wear blazer...

my sis said that this year world cup is the worst..all the teams soo funny 1..like mostly all win by luck 1...

well..nth i can think to write abt liao...sry so short even after so long nvr update..but i am too tired to think of anything liao..or i am jus tired of blogging...dun care liao lah...

2006-05-28T07:35:00.000-07:00

veri tired liao...so will not write alot..

went to the W4(west 4) cluster training camp at HomeTeamNS adventure centre...quite funny to c thumbs up ppl there,nvr thought that it was them who was goin to take us..there were a total of 5 schools there..Yuan Ching,Hua Yi,BukitView,Jurong View and Hong Kah secondary..

after they brief us and introducing them to us,we were split to different groups..i and Wen Ling went to group 4 while the others went to other groups..every group was given a letter..A,B,C,D all the way to J..and was told to think of a group nam that start with that letter...Group A is Attention Pls,B is BINGO,C is Carebian,D(my group)was call DY K..blah!!a veri long name..it is the name of a facilitator..for short is DKKJJ,E is Extra La,F is fisherman's friend(Chek Chen Group),G is G2(square),H is H2O(water),I is for INNOO and last but not least,J with two names,Jus Do It and Jaguar

our group did not really talked alot with each other unless our facilitator tell us to do groupwork...we were having fun with their activites althought we did not know who was in our group went we play games with other group...

later i found out our group leader call Steven,was the president of student council in Hua Yi..he was a nice person...would help out in anyway if we needed help...jus that he and his friends are sometime wild!!!lolZ...jk onli..

2006-05-25T23:04:00.000-07:00

so long nvr blog liao..lolZ..all my exams results are like sh!t lor...maths and combine humanities(dun care the spelling)fail...than eng also fail...sian liao lor...my mum and sis will kill me for sure....althought my POA and Science get high marks..

today went for the course...interesting but the teacher dun let us use internet unless u log in with ur own account(funny person)..than walked home with Joel...said that he will do anything the new eng teacher tell him to do as long as he pass his eng...

my holiday like not holiday 1...alot of events...need to go the Miss Lee thing..than Council also have alot of things...and camps too...

tmr already goin to the camp..cannot relax at all..need to report to scl at 9am...only come back the next day 5pm...haven prepare yet...forgotten abt it...

well gd luck to the ppl goin to penang today...wish ur will get a cup/medal back..

2006-05-21T08:15:00.000-07:00

yeah!!!finally my birthday came...really want to thx u guys for ur birthday wishes..

1st person:Chen Yew
2nd person:Lee Sheng (two of my best friends)
3rD person:Yong Chuan(nvr expected him)
and alot of other ppl:)..thx alot..

went to celebrate at sakea sushi(jp 1)..the service veri nice sia...the best service restaurant i went to..

after that went to orchard..like i said i would..veri hard to find the cd store...the lucky plaza has 7 stories!!!nvr expected it to be so big...found it in the end but they nvr sell kingdom hearts 2...T_T..but at least got some other cd i wanted...

they say tmr go play lan...but need to do passport...somemore need to go back the cd store...some cd got problem...haiz...sry guys..cannot go..

mum nagging at me again...will blog soon....wished ur guys get good result after getting back the papers ^_^

2006-05-20T03:49:00.000-07:00

I Will sung by dream..also inuyasha 1st ending song..

Quietly awakening...
I always, always wish
that these fleeting thoughts
would reach you...

Unable to move forward across "just a little more" distance
The way I see before me is always blocked
Every time the days I want to see you but can't pile up,
My strong heartbeat turns into heartbreak.

If there is such a thing as "eternity,"
I want to believe, even if I have to take the long way.
Although I know that I've been hurt before because I'm clumsy
I won't stop; I won't give in to anyone.

I think of you
and that alone is enough
to make the tears start to flow now
I always, always wish
that these fleeting thoughts
would reach you...

I've known all too well about pretending to be strong.
But since then, my doubts have vanished.

There's definitely things I want to show you
And so many words I want to hear
I want to see all sides of you, when you laugh and cry
So I'll stop waiting
and seize my "chance."

I think of you,
and I feel like that alone is enough
to make my heart grow stronger.
I always, always wish
that these fleeting thoughts
would reach you...

I think of youand that alone is enoughto make the tears start to flow nowMy distant voice can't reach you now, but so that somedayit definitely will...Believe.

2006-05-19T08:21:00.000-07:00

haiz...feeling weird again...y didn't u say to me yourself...i was thinking and wondering...if it is true..but now i think it is true...there was a glimpse of light inside me...but it is gone now...the emptiness inside me...

well...now i know the truth...there is nth i can do than...but to move on like i did last time...but...it jus gets harder and harder...

i really thank u guys....really...

2006-05-19T03:30:00.000-07:00

never expect poa paper to be so difficult..alot of thing do wrong..haiZ...dun think can get A for my poa liao...

so relieved that the exams are over..but dun think i did well for this exam..never put in my effort at all..

edited my blog a bit...but failed to do the effect to the whole website..dunnoe y..maybe i did somthing wrong bah..

still not in the mood to do anything..play a while also find it boring liao...dun even feel like goin out or goin TKD...

well..my life still need to go on...no matter how my life sux....hm..maybe should delete my last post...later my sis come and c my blog again...lol....

btw..gunz need DIRECT 9 something..where i can get it??cannot not find it anywhere on the web..

now watching youtube also got problem...haiZ...my com jus sux...hope i can change it soon...

think i goin to orchard soon...goin to find the cd shop that my cousin said there is a shop there..lucky plaza..where is it??any1 have any clue??

hope Kingdom Hearts 2 can cheer me up:P...wat a freak i am..lolZ

2006-05-17T22:32:00.000-07:00

emotionless...my heart is totally being ripped apart...like a large boulder crashed my only hope...the things that have being pushing me forward vanished into thin air..all i can do is nth...nth to change the fact...

staring into empty space...all i can think of is wat i was informed of.....jus lying to myself...that nth happened and i know nth...but i jus cannot escape the fact..when i see u...my mood jus suddenly changed... jus want to go somewhere far away..where i am all alone...

maybe wat my sis and godsis say is true...i am too young for this...that friendship dun always last forever..relationship is more easily broken..nth last forever...only the things u achieved is forever in your memories...maybe i should have took my sis advise and nvr walk this road...the road which is nice..but will cramble anytime when something went wrong...

you taught me alot of things...wat i dunnoe in my life..wat i missed out in my life...but maybe i am jus not gd enuff...i jus a useless person...my future is in a fog..even my sis says so..wat am i gd at??even i dunnnoe...my plans for the future are all flying away..

i really gave up on the things i do now...not only i dun trust anybody...but i dun trust myself more than others...wat to do...wat can i do...i dunnoe...i am unsure of myself...

feeling so depressed now...life is so meaningless...bleeding inside...wants to stop the bleed..but the cut is jus too deep...too deep to recover at all...

maybe wat they say is right...maybe...

2006-05-16T07:31:00.000-07:00

First Love by Utada Hikaru

like this song..like the lyrics more..

the last kiss
tasted like tobacco
a bitter and sad smell

tomorrow, at this time
where will you be?
who will you be thinking about?

you are always gonna be my love
even if I fall in love with someone once again
I'll remember to love
you taught me how
you are always gonna be the one
it's still a sad song
until I can sing a new song

the paused time is
about to start moving
there's many things that I don't want to forget about

tomorrow, at this time
I will probably be crying
I will probably be thinking about you

you will always be inside my heart
you will always have your own place
I hope that I have a place in your heart too
now and forever you are still the one
it's still a sad song
until I can sing a new song

you are always gonna be my love
even if I fall in love with someone once again
I'll remember to love
you taught me how
you are always gonna be the one
it's still a sad song
until I can sing a new song

2006-05-15T22:26:00.000-07:00

hm...trying out wat colour to put for my blog...sry that it is veri hard to c...maybe should change my blogskin..today maths die liao lor...so many qus dunnoe hw to do,brain went blank suddenly..than ss a little hard...haiz...hope i dun fail any subjects...dunnnoe y but always feel so stressed and trobled in scl...always thinking wat to do...maybe i am really thinking too much...getting veri tired of myself..starting to hate myself more and more...

tmr geog and chem test..chem i ok with it but geog i really got problem..trying to understand wat miss Lee says but really nth goes into my brain..

2006-05-08T03:08:00.000-07:00

lol...today was so boring...eng class nvr listen to teacher at all...than newspaper nvr do -1 markT_T....than my sis throw alot of maths at me..tell me to do..than the DNT test is so bloody hard..Heidi still say veri easy...today chinese Miss Ker nvr come than we will like walking around the whole DNT block..hope all of us pass our exam s!!!work hard!!!

2006-05-02T07:00:00.000-07:00

lol i mad liao,exams so near still play computer games..sry if never reply any1 who talked to me in msn today..well gettin stressed out by all the work i do not know how to do(sh!t!!!POA accounts some forgot how to do liao!!,maths even worst!!!)well..starting to revise with my sis and friends(not veri long as they are busy with their own "things" also)if i fail my maths again i think will die liao...cause ca1 i alos fail..need help!!!!lolZ...eng and chinese also not that good..and the geog test that miss lee gave i did not study at all,forgotten got test..the answer like totally blank man..fail of sure 1..but others subject also not that bad..hope to pass all exams...but so hard...or is i gettin more lazy?lol..i myself also dunnoe..hope some1 will giv me a hand and pull me back to my grades..hope ur also get gd marks for ur exams^^dun get too stress also^^

2006-04-30T10:12:00.000-07:00

hm...nvr tag veri long liao..nth much happened other than knowing more things day by day...nth exciting really happed...and my maple lvling sux!!!so slow sia...wished to find cd for kinddom hearts 2 and DW5 empires plus alot of games but cannot find..any1 know where to get??lol..feeling i am gettin so outdated in scl..well hope every1 get gd results for mid-year(i am so scared of failing sia..)

2006-04-22T02:24:00.000-07:00

feel so relieved suddenly..finally said it out!!!today went to scl in the morning for councillor meeting..brought back alot of books to read for planing of the counciller camp..so heavy and big!!!dunnoe will take how long to read finish..the POA test so hard sia...got 24(i think)MCQ,1 journals,1 dbl entries.etc.forgot still got wat..was so hapi that some1 is gettin fast at things..hope will that the person will be hapi!!now only left me sia...so sad...well need to jia you liao..studies drop like siao...

2006-04-21T09:47:00.000-07:00

today was my 1st dragonboat race and i was so hapi that we won the 1st plate!!my goal and wishes for the team are achived!!!than we walking home and stoped at lakeside becoz heidi saw her primary scl friend(ls also know her)..they talk of some time than kegan called(dunnoe for wat at 1st)..he asked us where we were so heidi told him...after heidi finished talking with her friend..we walk across the overhead bridge and was suprised to c kegan and xy at the bus stop(no wonder he called)..we talk for a while and they went to scl(1 for debate and another for band)and we walked home..after that we went to JP for dinner and we also catched a movie(hehe ls broke liao)..i feel so extra than bacoz they keep playing and talking to each other but cannot help it^_^since they are so close..the movie we watched is dark night(horror movie)..but did not really scare me much as all 3 stories are quite the same(water water and more water)..they spoke in different language(1st chinese pls taiwan?not sure wat..2nd is jap and 3rd is thai)well i am hapi for some reason(cannot saw later the person bash me)but also feel a little sad(dunnoe y..think i goin crazy or something)..well hope i will pick up the courage to ask things...hehe today was the most fun week i ever had(althought some days are quite bad but not as bad as other weeks i had)..o!!!btw...wished every1 GD LUCK FOR MID-YEAR EXAMS!!!!!JIA YOU!!!!

2006-04-20T01:04:00.000-07:00

i feel so stupid suddenly...dunnoe y...but really feel so stress abt the things goin on...maybe it is jus a dream...but i really feared that wat i dreamed became reality...feel like my emotions had being drained away bit by bit...feel like dying...althought i always think dying cannot solve anything but i am really breaking down...pieces by pieces... but cannot do anything to stop it...wish i could do anything to stop dreaming of that again...had the same dream for the whole week...and my heart bleeds everytime i dream of it...if that dream really became reality..i swear that i will not do anything from that day onwards...i will not do anything that will hurt my heart again...anyway...alot of thoughts in my head..dunnoe y..same as always..the ols stupiD questions that i nvr have an answer..nvm...not important anyway(mus cheer up by tmr!!!got compition!!!)